"You get what you get and you don't get upset".

We are taught this from an early age right? You wanted the pink spoon and you got the green one and it makes you sad so you cry. Suddenly you hear a voice from above, "You get what you get and you don't get upset!" It's your mom or your dad or someone who has authority over you to randomly give you the green spoon when all you want in life is the pink spoon, "Dear God why didn't I get the pink spoon?" Even now as a 50 year old I find myself getting upset when I don't get what I want. I don't throw myself down on the floor and cry even though I would really, really love to. Instead I just feel bad and think "what choices in my life did I make that led me to this moment where I have to pay for my body wash with a credit card because if I use the debt card I won't have enough money in my account to pay the rent." Where did I go wrong? or maybe in the next life I will not have the stress of not being able to afford a house or the car I want instead of the cheap, realistic car. I should have this and I should have that... I am grateful for what I have, I survived cancer instead of dying young, I have a roof over my head and food in the fridge. My kids are healthy. I am grateful. But I don't get to sit here and contemplate my choices, I have to go downstairs and watch a fucking documentary because I don't get to do a fucking thing I want to do, I made my choices, actually I didn't, but I can't fucking get upset because I get what I get right?